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My Birthday on 30th Oct 2009

Yesterday was my Birthday, a most memorable one so far!

Every year since i was born, I celebrate my Birthday with my mother. Usually she will buy a cake & eat outside. After I went to Singapore, I celebrate my birthday with my boyfriend since last year.

Last year he only bought me a "ji dan gao" and put a candle on top & i received my present SE910i very late about Dec... It was quite silly, I think nobody spent birthday like that... But still I was very happy...

When come to this year, i mean yesterday... Morning when i wake up, I hv maggie mee for breakfast, go to work with a no mood on the bus because I am still thinking of the incident happen on the bus on the day before. My bf gave me a birthday greeting makes me feel better.

Yesterday was a rainy day & i have no choice but eat inside office with my blackface collegue... My bf called & told me he was unable to hv dinner with me as his mom cooked dinner for him.

I ate dinner alone, and that feeling sucks! I hate being alone, some more when that day is my birthday! Going to night class & looked up to the sky, it is going to rain... again...

I really hate raining, it spoils my mood a lot... After class, I went home alone, walking on the street, the floor was wet and the water keeps getting in my shoes, it feels terrible... that's 1 of the reason why i hate raining... On the way home when i was on the bus, i feel really terrible... My birthday is going to end, just like that? Not even blowing a candle or what...

Then was the best thing ever happens, my bf waiting for me, prepare a whole pc abalone which was a palm size big, a nice cheese cake from bengawan solo, bird nest and a yr 94 red wine! That was fantastic! I would never even dream of that! I really felt blessed having a bf like that!

I LOVE U DEAR!

Sie Kei Alive in My Dream (21/10/09)

I attend my night class as usual...
Who is that? Is C Kei! Sitting there quietly... What happen? 2 years already & now you are here? Where have you been?
My friend told me ,"she was saved by a man"
Class ended...
We took the lift to the Ground floor & walk out from the school building... She took the metal box on the floor then run towards a guy sitting on a motorcycle (looks old & messy) & both of them went away...
I was blurred... What happen? Who is that guy? Her father or who? "Her husband" My friend said. "She is paying back his favour by saving her from drowning"
It's really weird that I saw an illustration that C Kei was stuck down at the bottom of the sea, tighten by some rope or wat... Then this old man dive down & saved her...
Then I woke up... Keep thinking this was real... Then think again... No, this was a dream! How come it feels so real?
Everytime I dream about her I felt so REAL! & she will not said even a word in my dream... What is going wrong with me?

SE W910i vs GD 900 crystal

I just went for Singtel for my hand phone upgrade to LG GD900 Crystal yesterday night. This is my birthday present from my boyfriend... Very happy although it is a bit too early from my birthday...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r15EKspub-c

The stock will be reach tonight, so I have to wait until tonight then i can get my hand on it! Hahaha....
I think my existing phone SE W910i knows that I am going to abandon "her". You know why, today morning I wake up I saw there are only half of the battery remaining, so I charge for another half hour before I went to work.
Usually I don't look at my phone unless I want to use it or I heard a ringing or sms. Since today I am having lunch in office, so after lunch I want to call my dear a while and chat with him.
Who knows when I take out my phone, it is a totally blackout... Nothing appeared on the screen... I thought I just charged it on the morning? How come no battery? I keep pressing the "ON" button but nothing appeared also! What happen? I took out the whole battery, put it back, try to restart... Still the same!!!
Celaka!!! I think this fella must have known that I am going to put "her" away so "she" start making attitude... Oh my god... phone also got feeling har?

My Rich Guy

I will be sitting my 2nd examination on Tuesday... Erm... Afraid or not? Well... I really don't know because 2 of my friends fail the test.

However, a lot of students from China pass with Flying Colours! So, what you think? Never look down on them! They can get what you can't get even if your english is better!

Actually, I am really really regret of taking this diploma. Why? Because I hate study & exams! Will it be better if I just find a rich guy marry then stay at home be the "tai tai"? Haha... who doesn't want that... But the problem is... Where are all those rich guys? All MARRIED because every girl is marking on them! Hahaha!

Rich guy, I guess I have 1...

Rich in mind I suppose... He teaches me a lot of things... Especially on how to deal with all those difficult person...

Rich in money? Will be... Hopefully... He is smart (what I think)... I am quite sure he can get what he wants soon... If he is rich then, I will sure post a blog and let you know... Hahaha... Don't kidnap me after that...

Rich in stomach? Haha... Growing already! Must stop him taking supper if not I'll dump him! Hahaha! I told him this, guess what he answered me? He said, because I ate your leftover! Hahaha... Good point! I really did leftover foods everytime for him to clear it up... Erm... So I have part of the responsibility also...

I am really lucky to have him! and I will sure cherish & appreciate him with all my heart! LOVE YOU!

Blog written in Chinese words is more interesting

Seriously i think blog written in Chinese is more interesting & nice to read, is that because I am Chinese Educated?

Chinese words are simple and easy to understand. Every word include a lot of "Feeling" inside... Hahaha... very "kua zhang"?

Erm... maybe because I like to write a lot of words, I found out my blog actually seems like very BORING & there are TOO MANY words until dun feel like wanna read further more... So, we need a lot of pictures to make it interesting (which i am lazy to do it)

So, frankly speaking I don't think ppl like to read my blog also...

Things is different with Chinese written blog... I found out that without all those interesting pictures, it can be still very interesting! At least whenever I read my friend's blod (in chinese words). I will read it all although the whole post is very very long & without picture...

What do you think?

Exam coming soon

Oh my god... My 1st session of study is officially over... I register for my exam next month 15th & 29th...
For the past few revision, I realise that actually I don't know what is my lecturer talking about especially on the middle to last few chapters... Not saying that he is not good, just that I still haven't done my revision to that chapters so I really don't get him... Sorry about that...
I really need to catch up & do my notes ASAP coz thats the ONLY way I know what it is all about... I found out it is really a dizzy for me because the lecturer keep "JUMPING" here & there in the lectures...
Buck up FOO YIN JEK!

Satisfaction... Again

It is not easy, to find a person that loves you, cares about you, helps you no matter what happens and even know what is going on your mind...
I should tresure this person, am I?
Why I am still so narrow minded about the "NOT GOOD", no one is perfect, correct?
As long as the GOOD part covers it, should be fine enough, is it?
You are good enough, until I know I can't barely find another person like you in this whole world. No one is perfect, even me.
I don't know what will happen next, in our future...
It is really like a Needle in my heart, & I have no courage to take it out as it is too painful. All i can do is just let it be, at least it won't hurts if nobody touches it.
Maybe we will lead to a beutiful & happiness life? OR ended up in separate way? I hope we can hold hands and walk side by side until to the end of our life...Can we?
I am really struggle...I am silly, I am narrow minded, I am selfish, I am truly not like it... But what can I do? I can't even do a thing... I can't do anything to change because there are no turning back... All I can do is choose to continue, or choose to let go...
Continue? to bare the things that I don't like?
Let go? to bare all the love & hardship I had given?
I don't even feel like want to choose & I can't keep on complaning the same thing over and over again coz I know this is a pressure to you. I can't even tell others what am I going through, this is fustrating me...
Life is like a gamble... You put in your money, 1 is win, another is lose...
Don't gamble? then you can be a "lou gu poh", buy a "lou gu poh" house & live with all the same kind of ppl...

Certified Accounting Technician (CAT)

I start my study for this diploma since 1st July 2009. It is really tiring... Not tired about need to study all the time, is the matter about I didn't get enough sleep...
This course got 9 papers, every paper takes 2 months time to study, 3 hours a day, 2 days a week.
Since I got the scholarship, I need to finish the whole course & pass the exams in 1.5 years. Meaning that, I have to take 2 paper every semester...

T1 - Every Wed & Fri,
T2 - Every Mon & Thur,
the time is 6.45pm to 9.45pm.

Every morning I have to get up at 6.00am, take bath, eat breakfast and take bus at 7.10am.
Start work at 8.00am and off work at 5.30pm
Then now I have to take bus to the academy (very near by like 5 to 6 bus stops distance), eat my dinner. Usually when I finish my dinner & went up to my class, the time is 6.20pm like that... By that time, I am totally in SLEEPING mode as you know, after dinner ppl will get lazy, plus the air-cond... Shiok if that is my house...
Actually I am still ok with the study, everything I understand... Just that when it comes to 9.45pm, I am already like dead meat (usually I will drink red bull to keep up & focus)
The time I reached home, take bath then prepare for tomorrow text book... It's already 11pm...

Sleeping time = 11.00pm to 6.00am IS NOT ENOUGH for me! I am the person who needs 8 hours sleeping time everyday!

The lecturer teaches 1 chapter everyday using the notes he gave... When I take out the notebook to do the revision yesterday, I found out that in the 3 hours teaching for 1 chapter everyday, it covers 35 pages in my text book! Wow... He is sure fast because he only take out the most important part in the text book...

So, every Saturday I spend 3 hours , Sunday about 8 hours to revised all the chapter he teaches in that week and take my own notes... Barely have my own time! Don't even try to mention about going out! NO TIME!

I dunno when I will be going crazy like this

NOT ENOUGH SLEEP + NO TIME = 100% Mentally Not Stable

Luckily my bf is really really sweet... He come to fetch me every night after school, buy chicken tonic for me... This is what makes me STAY UP.

KEEP UP foo yin jek!

Some people never learn to appreciate

I'm really fed up to see some people never learn to appreciate...

It seems like they are "SUPPOSE TO" being care and loved. They really don't know that when another people care about you, he/she is trying to do all he can just to make you happy, then why are you keep let your temper out to somebody that is really trying to make you happy?

It really breaks my heart to see that after all the hardship & effort, what comes back is that bad temper saying that "You are BAD! You are not good to me!" Wow... what for we try so hard to pleased you? to give you what you want? Is that the reward we can get?

Hello, is it COMPULSORY that everybody in the whole world do things to pleased you? Did you do the same to treat the person who had treated you nice? What did you do?

All the small small things they do for you... Have you seen it?

The breakfast he prepared, every morning... without complaining how early he woke up to prepare...
The present he bought, every special days... without letting you know how hard the money earns & how he save all those money just to buy the things you love, walk up & down to search...
The holidays... trying to give you a happy holiday even though Sunday is the only day which can rest, even not feeling well...
The food... bring you to air-cond places to eat when you are complaining the weather is HOT, knowing that air-cond place is expensive
Always know what you love, what you like...

Do you aware all of this? Do you say thank you? Do you know what he likes, what he loved? Does he ever ask you to buy something for him? Does he ask for present?

So, before everyone of you wanna get mad of another person... THINK... what is all the good things he had done for you... Try to put down your anger, listen & see what can you do to make him happy also... Thats all I ask for...

Malay staff at my workplace

I got 1 Malay colleague at my workplace. He is the supervisor, no no no, He WAS the supervisor of all the servicing technician. He works for the company over 8 years already.

Lately, we found out that the diesel bill for his vehicle went up RIDICULOUSLY. $800++ for May.

Our company got 3 vehicles. 2 lorries & 1 van. For our company policy, drivers CANNOT drive the vehicle back but for some special reason (i think maybe he work long enough), he can drive back the van every weekend. Even though we know he drive the van back during weekdays, we didn't say anything to him as we take it as HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING but seems that he is obviously NOT.

Monthly diesel expenses for both lorries about 300 to 400 plus depends on our schedule. How can he use up to 800++ for a van? We question him, but he deny everything! He said sometimes we gave him so many works untuil he have to work OT so he drive back, the van makan minyak, sometimes he goes to see football... bla bla bla...

So, my boss decided to gave him a chance. YOU STILL CAN DRIVE BACK THE VEHICLE, I"LL MONITOR THE METER FOR THE VEHICLE FOR THIS MONTH.

So, I got additional job since 8th June 2009. Record the meter for 3 vehicles every morning.
Mon (8 June 2009) : Lorry A - 104km, Lorry B - 63km, Van - 163km
Tue (9 June 2009) : Lorry A - 79km, Lorry B - 53km, Van - 165km
Wed (10 June 2009) : Lorry A - 73km, Lorry B - 100km, Van - 238km
Thur (11 June 2009) : Lorry A - 81km, Lorry B - 82km, Van - 187km
Fri (12 June 2009) : Lorry A - 73km, Lorry B - 82km, Van - 301km
Sat (13 June 2009) : Lorry A - 37km, Lorry B - 42km, Van - 240km
Please take note that Saturday we only work half day.

Crazy is it? Actually for his vehicle I do special record on my boss request. I record the meter when he came back late evening and again on the next morning so I know how far he travel after in & working time. (W - working time ; O - off work time)
Mon : W - 72km ; O - 91km
Tue : W - 50km ; O - 115km
Wed : W & O - 238km (Didn't manage to record late afternoon because he work OT)
Thur: W - 72km ; O - 115km
Fri : W - 136km ; O - 165km
He really pig head! Your boss already told you we will record your meter everyday & YOU KNOW IT! why are you still so stupid? STOP for a while lar! Really wonder what is in his brain you know? STUPID like hell!
Immediately my boss stop him from driving back the van on Saturday, he still stupidly ask my boss why (he said my boss promise him to observe him for 1 month, now just 1 week)... Walauwei.... Really funny man....
Monday he didn't came for work, we can't contact him also. SURPRISINGLY when I record the meter for the van, it goes up to 240km even though we only work half day on Saturday & the time he came back he already pass us the key.
HE GOT DUPLICATE KEY & use the van even we already ask him NOT TO!
Today is wednesday we still can't find him (neither his family)...

Mister, don't spit on the bus!

This morning as usual I take bus to work. A man aboard, take the seat beside my row. I am terribly angry when I see him spit on the bus!

Not once, at least 6 times spitting on the bus in 5 minutes time! How awful is that! I can't imagine, if he alight at the last stop, the place will be fully filled by his spit! How dirty is that! How on earth other ppl dare to take that seat when they see that??

I can't take it anymore! I took out a packet of tissue paper inside my bag, pass to him & said, "Mr Please DON'T spit on the bus, wipe it off!"
Then he took the tissue paper & wipe it off. Terrible man!
Next time if I see him spit again, I won't give him tissue paper anymore. I will go downstairs, inform the bus captain," bus captain, you got a passenger spitting on the bus, go give him a fine $500"

Jack Neo sucks!

Today I read the newspaper, the so call "famous director" = Uncle Jack Neo saids that Singapore's Government keep "scaring" local residences that how bad the economy is....

Halo uncle! You think you are "Dai Gor" No.2? On & off make some nonsense opinion so that you can squeeze in the newspaper? Oh please!

Government is giving us the status of the economy right now. What's wrong about that? It is good enough for the government to advise us to manage our own financial carefully.

You don't like the way they said? Then go overseas and then try to beat other international director lar! Why still stay here if you think the government is not good enough?

Don't always act like you are a "famous director" so you can talk so "YAYA PAPAYA" & even try to mimic Mr. Jackie Chan who is also saids some very funny opinion to let people think you both are "wu liao"....

Dreamed About C Kei, Again...

Yesterday I dreamed about C Kei again...
My bf (Dunno how he got into my dream coz they are not connected or even know each other at all) was going to bring a stack of letters and cards to post... I found out that the handwriting was actually C Kei's handwriting... I ask him "Who's handwriting is this?" He insist that was his handwriting... I am very sure that was not his handwriting but it's C Kei's one... I force him to said where is she? Where?
My mom walk out, seems like something is hiding from me... I am very sure she know something about this... I forced them to talk, tell me where she is...
My mom take the store room key out and unlock the door... She was inside, hiding behind the table... I dunno why she was in my house & how long she is there... But I am very exciting to found she is alive, again... I drag her out into my room and keep asking "Y r u in the store room? What happen? Y u don't let me know that u r still alive? I dun wanna be the last person to know that u r still alive!" I cried in tears... But she din answer me anything...
I woke up in the midnight with tears... real tears all over my face...
I wonder what the dream is about...
For such a long time I din think about this very good fren of mine but she suddenly pop out... in my dream... I suppose this is the only way we can see each other...

today is 12th February 2009

It's been a long long time since I post my previous blog... Actually I have no idea what I'm going to post as I am not a creative person...
This year go back to my hometown to celebrate for Chinese New Year for almost 1 week which spent me 5 days of Unpaid Leave. I ate at restaurant everyday. 7 days a week. Fish, Crabs, Prawns...
Ang pows become lesser and lesser this year. But that is not a matter now because at the end I will pass all the ang pow money to my mom also...
I tot I wanna buy a lot of things in Ipoh but end up just a pair of shoe... Haih... Different story for my BF, he bought a lot of clothes in Ipoh... We went to watch "Ink Heart" in the cinema, courtesy of my cousin's free tickets.
Come back into SG with tonnes of work waiting for me. Pending E-Invoices stack like Himalaya Mountain. A few weeks of OT only can finish them off... Huh... Until this week only I can really said like "back to normal"...
That all liao... Speachless....