My Birthday on 30th Oct 2009

Yesterday was my Birthday, a most memorable one so far!

Every year since i was born, I celebrate my Birthday with my mother. Usually she will buy a cake & eat outside. After I went to Singapore, I celebrate my birthday with my boyfriend since last year.

Last year he only bought me a "ji dan gao" and put a candle on top & i received my present SE910i very late about Dec... It was quite silly, I think nobody spent birthday like that... But still I was very happy...

When come to this year, i mean yesterday... Morning when i wake up, I hv maggie mee for breakfast, go to work with a no mood on the bus because I am still thinking of the incident happen on the bus on the day before. My bf gave me a birthday greeting makes me feel better.

Yesterday was a rainy day & i have no choice but eat inside office with my blackface collegue... My bf called & told me he was unable to hv dinner with me as his mom cooked dinner for him.

I ate dinner alone, and that feeling sucks! I hate being alone, some more when that day is my birthday! Going to night class & looked up to the sky, it is going to rain... again...

I really hate raining, it spoils my mood a lot... After class, I went home alone, walking on the street, the floor was wet and the water keeps getting in my shoes, it feels terrible... that's 1 of the reason why i hate raining... On the way home when i was on the bus, i feel really terrible... My birthday is going to end, just like that? Not even blowing a candle or what...

Then was the best thing ever happens, my bf waiting for me, prepare a whole pc abalone which was a palm size big, a nice cheese cake from bengawan solo, bird nest and a yr 94 red wine! That was fantastic! I would never even dream of that! I really felt blessed having a bf like that!

I LOVE U DEAR!

Sie Kei Alive in My Dream (21/10/09)

I attend my night class as usual...
Who is that? Is C Kei! Sitting there quietly... What happen? 2 years already & now you are here? Where have you been?
My friend told me ,"she was saved by a man"
Class ended...
We took the lift to the Ground floor & walk out from the school building... She took the metal box on the floor then run towards a guy sitting on a motorcycle (looks old & messy) & both of them went away...
I was blurred... What happen? Who is that guy? Her father or who? "Her husband" My friend said. "She is paying back his favour by saving her from drowning"
It's really weird that I saw an illustration that C Kei was stuck down at the bottom of the sea, tighten by some rope or wat... Then this old man dive down & saved her...
Then I woke up... Keep thinking this was real... Then think again... No, this was a dream! How come it feels so real?
Everytime I dream about her I felt so REAL! & she will not said even a word in my dream... What is going wrong with me?

SE W910i vs GD 900 crystal

I just went for Singtel for my hand phone upgrade to LG GD900 Crystal yesterday night. This is my birthday present from my boyfriend... Very happy although it is a bit too early from my birthday...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r15EKspub-c

The stock will be reach tonight, so I have to wait until tonight then i can get my hand on it! Hahaha....
I think my existing phone SE W910i knows that I am going to abandon "her". You know why, today morning I wake up I saw there are only half of the battery remaining, so I charge for another half hour before I went to work.
Usually I don't look at my phone unless I want to use it or I heard a ringing or sms. Since today I am having lunch in office, so after lunch I want to call my dear a while and chat with him.
Who knows when I take out my phone, it is a totally blackout... Nothing appeared on the screen... I thought I just charged it on the morning? How come no battery? I keep pressing the "ON" button but nothing appeared also! What happen? I took out the whole battery, put it back, try to restart... Still the same!!!
Celaka!!! I think this fella must have known that I am going to put "her" away so "she" start making attitude... Oh my god... phone also got feeling har?

My Rich Guy

I will be sitting my 2nd examination on Tuesday... Erm... Afraid or not? Well... I really don't know because 2 of my friends fail the test.

However, a lot of students from China pass with Flying Colours! So, what you think? Never look down on them! They can get what you can't get even if your english is better!

Actually, I am really really regret of taking this diploma. Why? Because I hate study & exams! Will it be better if I just find a rich guy marry then stay at home be the "tai tai"? Haha... who doesn't want that... But the problem is... Where are all those rich guys? All MARRIED because every girl is marking on them! Hahaha!

Rich guy, I guess I have 1...

Rich in mind I suppose... He teaches me a lot of things... Especially on how to deal with all those difficult person...

Rich in money? Will be... Hopefully... He is smart (what I think)... I am quite sure he can get what he wants soon... If he is rich then, I will sure post a blog and let you know... Hahaha... Don't kidnap me after that...

Rich in stomach? Haha... Growing already! Must stop him taking supper if not I'll dump him! Hahaha! I told him this, guess what he answered me? He said, because I ate your leftover! Hahaha... Good point! I really did leftover foods everytime for him to clear it up... Erm... So I have part of the responsibility also...

I am really lucky to have him! and I will sure cherish & appreciate him with all my heart! LOVE YOU!

Blog written in Chinese words is more interesting

Seriously i think blog written in Chinese is more interesting & nice to read, is that because I am Chinese Educated?

Chinese words are simple and easy to understand. Every word include a lot of "Feeling" inside... Hahaha... very "kua zhang"?

Erm... maybe because I like to write a lot of words, I found out my blog actually seems like very BORING & there are TOO MANY words until dun feel like wanna read further more... So, we need a lot of pictures to make it interesting (which i am lazy to do it)

So, frankly speaking I don't think ppl like to read my blog also...

Things is different with Chinese written blog... I found out that without all those interesting pictures, it can be still very interesting! At least whenever I read my friend's blod (in chinese words). I will read it all although the whole post is very very long & without picture...

What do you think?

Exam coming soon

Oh my god... My 1st session of study is officially over... I register for my exam next month 15th & 29th...
For the past few revision, I realise that actually I don't know what is my lecturer talking about especially on the middle to last few chapters... Not saying that he is not good, just that I still haven't done my revision to that chapters so I really don't get him... Sorry about that...
I really need to catch up & do my notes ASAP coz thats the ONLY way I know what it is all about... I found out it is really a dizzy for me because the lecturer keep "JUMPING" here & there in the lectures...
Buck up FOO YIN JEK!

Satisfaction... Again

It is not easy, to find a person that loves you, cares about you, helps you no matter what happens and even know what is going on your mind...
I should tresure this person, am I?
Why I am still so narrow minded about the "NOT GOOD", no one is perfect, correct?
As long as the GOOD part covers it, should be fine enough, is it?
You are good enough, until I know I can't barely find another person like you in this whole world. No one is perfect, even me.
I don't know what will happen next, in our future...
It is really like a Needle in my heart, & I have no courage to take it out as it is too painful. All i can do is just let it be, at least it won't hurts if nobody touches it.
Maybe we will lead to a beutiful & happiness life? OR ended up in separate way? I hope we can hold hands and walk side by side until to the end of our life...Can we?
I am really struggle...I am silly, I am narrow minded, I am selfish, I am truly not like it... But what can I do? I can't even do a thing... I can't do anything to change because there are no turning back... All I can do is choose to continue, or choose to let go...
Continue? to bare the things that I don't like?
Let go? to bare all the love & hardship I had given?
I don't even feel like want to choose & I can't keep on complaning the same thing over and over again coz I know this is a pressure to you. I can't even tell others what am I going through, this is fustrating me...
Life is like a gamble... You put in your money, 1 is win, another is lose...
Don't gamble? then you can be a "lou gu poh", buy a "lou gu poh" house & live with all the same kind of ppl...